Hey everybody. Wow. It's been awhile, huh? Well...I don't quite know where to begin - actually, let's start with Brittney. Brittney - I always will love her, even though I have moved on since she told me what I was doing to her life - I have to move on, as I am sure you have of me. For awhile there I was going crazy, as she knows, trying to get her back. And then I finally realized that she wasn't going to come back into my life. It hurt me more than I could believe - I guess I now know how she felt. I just hope that she didn't put a gun to her head, as I did, when I finally realized the truth. Yes, everybody, that's right. I almost comitted sucide. And then I went for help. I was in a rehab center for 1 month, because of my prison charges, as well as my sucide attempt. And then I was out. I feel like a new person - and I have someone else in my life who loves me, baggage and all. But I'll get into that a little later. Brittney will always be one of my girls - I don't believe that I will ever fully get over her. But I know that I need to continue trying. Brittney, if you're reading this, I will always love you - no matter who I'm with. But I don't need you anymore - I have found someone else, who I love even more than her. Her name is Erika Blight. She is a sweet blonde, and a model (amazing for me, huh?). I love her to death. She and I have been together for 2 1/2 months now - and I have loved every moment of these times. Which is wonderful. I needed someone else in my life to care for me. And I finally got it, and I did what Brittney did - I put my life into order. I'm going back to school now - my senior year - and so far I am going to be able to graduate only 6 months after all of the other seniors. I have a great job working at an auto mechanic shop, and I still play my gigs at the Garage. Some things will never change. :) I just had to get this all off of my chest - and one more thing, Shelby - I'm sorry that I put you through that shit - I only did it because I was hurting so much because of Brittney. But I'm better now - and I'm happy that Brittney was finally able to put her life in order because of you. So I'll end with a few pictures, and I will talk to everyone at a later time.

- Erika

 - Erika's ass

 - Erika modeling - she looks like a different person!

- 1st flower I gave to Erika

  -  my new puppy

Hey people. It's been awhile. Brittney and I aren't talking. I miss her so much. She's saying something about how she can't be my friend or anything else because she needs to get her life back in order, and put herself before keeping me happy, whatever that is supposed to me. Maybe it's because of what I said to shelby...I'll have to apologize to her sometime, I guess. If Brittney won't be my friend anymore, I'll prob. cry - for the... 3rd time in my life, and I can't do anything without her. I got out of the county jail 4 days ago. My christmas sucked ass. I was in jail for it. Assault and battery...couldn't get out until my father showed up and decided to pay my bail... my mother wouldn't even give me that. Bitch. But yeah, I need to go...I have to go and do my "community service." now. All this for beating up a guy. What the fuck?

Got to go

-Brian

Why the fuck is everyone fucking with brittney? brittney is the best fucking girl i have ever met in my whole fucking life... and I would give anything to be with her. I love her to death, and it hurts me so much to see stupid ass people hurting her. She DOESN'T FUCKING DESERVE IT. Shelby - why? why would you do this to her? she feels like crap now, and even though shez been telling me that she'z not angry with you, guess what. I fucking am. And I don't even know you. Jeremie - why would you pass up a chance to go out with this one? She is the best, most wonderful thing that's probably ever going to happen to you...and you just let her slip through your fingers. I just don't understand how you can do this. I read her xanga, and what shes feeling now, i felt when I decided what I had done to her was wrong. And let me tell you, it hurts like you'll never believe. But you can't be angry, because you love them to death... it's just not fair for this to be happening to her. And now, I really don't even want to start on this bastard, but Josh has never, and will never again be my friend. I'm getting charges pressed against me as I am typing this. He is in the hospital at the moment...3 fractured ribs, broken arm, broken nose, concussion. and let me tell you - he deserves it all for what he did to Brittney, and what he did to stop our friendship. I have to go, I'm needed at the police station. I'll write more later,

- Brian

Oh damn, yesterday was the second best night of my life. (and my 1st...ask brittney. lmao) We were playing at the Garage, as usual, and Jason and I had a bet - who could get the most girls to kiss each other for us and let us take a picture of them. Jason and I bet 25 bucks. Well, let's just say I'm 25 bucks richer now. lmao. so here are a couple of the best pictures I got last night. :)

 This was Jessica and Nicole - on fire!

 Here we have the lovely girls Amanda and Becca

 This is Hilary and Kristina

  Tiffany and Holly

 And last - but certaintly not least - the hot Jen and Lindsey. That's a good enough Christmas present for me!

LOL. so there ya have it - my wonderful journey to $25 dollars - Jason only got 2 couples. :) and one of them was the same as one of mine. so one. :) well, here is a survey I found...somewhere. hope ya like

SIMPLE QUESTIONS:
1.What time is it? 3:42 p.m.
2.What is your name? Brian Phillips
3.What is your birthday? April 24
4.How many sibs do you have? none  
5.What are your sibs names? -----
6.Do you have a job? yea
7.If yes, where?: car shop
8.If no to #6, Where do you wanna work?
9.Do you have a car? yea babi!!!!
10.What kinda car do you have/want? 2003 black mustang convertible!!!!

FAVORITE QUESTIONS:
11.Movie: Top Gun
12.Song: anything heavy metal
13.Band: anything heavy metal --- OH WAIT, THE HAZARDS!!! lmao (that'd be my band)
14.Group: anything heavy metal
15.Singer: me! lol
16.TV Show: okay okay i have to admit - Desperate Housewives.  
17. TV Channel: MTV 
18.Actor: Antonio Banderez, Mike Myers, Eddie Murphy, Vin Diesel, Paul Walker (but thats BRITTNEY'S BABI!!!)
19.Actress: that hot chick off of desperate housewives, anybody who's hot... lol.
20.Comic: uhhhhh
21.Magazine: Sports Illustrated
22.Food: Pizza
23.Snack: M and Ms
24.Drink: Mountain Dew - well, scratch that. Bacardi or Jack Daniels
25.CD-ROM Game: none bitch!!!! I don't play games!
26.Board Game: Look up
27.Card Game: Poker
28.Kid Game: uhhhhhh - look at # 25
29.Number: 69
30.Cartoon: South Park
31.Character: uhhhhhh
32.Disney Character: Beast
33.Color: black or red
34.Hair Color: brown
35.Time of the day: midnight
36.Day of the week: saturday
37.Week of the month: uhhhhhhhh the 2nd?
38.Month of the Year: April

LOVE LIFE ETC:
39.Do you plan on having children: yea
40.Do you want to get married: naw, I just wanna have my kids with a prostitute. stupid ass
survey
41.How old do you wanna be when you have your first child: let's see... it'd be kinda hard
for me to have kids
42.How old do you wanna be when your married: in my 20s
43.Would you have kids before marriage? hell no
44.What would you name the boy? Brian Jr!! lol, Jackson
45.What would you name the girl? Andrea
46.Are you a virgin?: HELL NO
47.If so, Do you plan on loosing your virginity ne time soon?:
48.Have you had oral sex?: yea
49.If no, Have you been past base 1?:
50.Do you even know what the bases are?: DO I LOOK LIKE A STUPID FUCKER 2 YOU?
uhhh... don't answer that
51.Do you have a b/f or g/f (who): nope
52.Do you have a crush? yea.... on Brittney!!!!

EITHER-OR (PICK WHICH ONE YOU PREFER)
53.Music/TV: music
54.Guys/Girls: girls
55.Green/Blue: blue
56.Pink/Purple: pink
57.Sleep/StayUp: stay up
58.Summer/Winter: summer
59.Spring/Fall: spring
60.Night/Day: night
61.Hangin Out/Chillin: thats the same fucking thing
62.Friends/Lovers: friends
63.Cold/Warm: Warm
64.Fast/Slow: Fast!
65.New/Old: New
66.Dark/Light: dark
67.Sparkle/Shine: uhhhhh no comment
68.Peach/Plum: Peach
69.Apple/Orange: Orange
70.Laundry/Dishes: Laundry
71..Christina/Britney: damn they're both hott - both
72.Limp Bizkit/KoRn: ahhh shit.... both. Plz?!?!?!!?!!???!!!?!?!?!
73.Rock/Rap: rock
74.Pop/R&B: fuck that

WHAT DO YOU THINK? (PUT WHAT FIRST COMES TO MIND WHEN YOU SEE THE FOLLOWING WORDS:)
75.Glass: window
76.Shake: grind
77.Club: the garage
78.Sing: me

79.Loud: the hazards
80.Garcia: baseball
81.Hair: need to cut it
82.Ching: bling
83.Money: yea babi
84.Work: sucks ass
85.Play: ball
86.4002: 2004
87.Betty: ahhhhhhhh...... boo

88.Sara: that hot chick at the garage
89.Dog: what? (my dog morons)
90.Brain: dead
91.Nick: THAT FUCKER WHO BRITTNEY USED TO GO OUT WIT
92.Frank: sinatra
93.AM: fuck mornings
94.FM: music
95.PM: partying
96.Morning: zzzzzzzz......
97.Balls: mine

WHAT DO YOU THINK (WRITE WHAT YOU THINK OF THE FOLLOWING)
98.Eminem: stupid fucker

99.Rap: is fucking stupid... wiggers and niggers
100.Teenagers: me bitch!
101.Smoking: addicted
102.Death: fun fun
103.Life: enjoy it.... be stupid
104.Drinking: Awesome at parties
105.Bomb Threats: SHIT, THEY FIGURED OUT IT WAS ME!!!
106.Murder: all those people i killed with my bomb
107.Suicide: cutting
108.Fear: is awesome

FRIENDZ:
109.Who is your best friend?: Jason, Michael, Brittney, Joey, Mark
110.Who is the best person to hang with?: Brittney, Joey, Jason
111.Who is the sweetest person?: Brittney
112.Whos the cutest person: Brittney - sexi ass gurl there. :)
113.Whos the nicest?: - Brittney
114.Whos the best to talk online with?: Brittney (am I using her 2 much? lmao)
115.Whos the most blonde: BRITTNEY
116 Weirdest: Jason, Mark
117.Whos the craziest: Mark
118.Loudest: Mark
119.Quietest: Michael
120.Smartest: Michael
121.Quickest: Jason
123.Most Trustful: Brittney
124.Most Honest: Brittney
125.Most Cheerful: Joey

EW (Pointless) QUESTIONS:
126.Are you glad it's almost done? YES!!!!!!!!!

127 Did you have a good day today? i guess...
128 What are you doing tomorrow: whatever the fuck i feel like! just not school. *drop out
dude* :) suckers!
129.What did you do today?: played at the garage REALLY early this morning, slept, slept,
talked to Britt, slept, ate, talked to Jason, practiced new songs
130:Why is pickle juice green?: what the fuck is that question???

IM DONE!!!! HELL YA!!!! lol